Sometimes I wonder

[chani]

What's the point? What's the point in doing this LJ thing again? 

I can't tell you how many times I have been about to quit. 

Because I had a dream, you know. It was to create a place where we could gather and discuss screen stuff around a virtual cup of tea.  I wanted to use the web in order to hold a salon as Julie de Lespinasse or La marquise du Deffand did in the 18th century. We would have discussed movies and television as their guests used to discuss books and ideas of the Enlightement at the time.

But overall I failed. 

The only times people really gathered in here were when the topic was about kinks or about commenting/lurking/de-friending because they felt curious, teased or in need of explaining themselves...which means they came when it was not a salon but rather a playground. It was cool, but it wasn't what this LJ was supposed to be.

 I've indulged myself with playground stuff, I've posted memes when they were connected to the Jossverse or to movies, or just because I knew some of "my friends" liked to learn things about their flist and it was a way to connect -which is good- but I could have done the very same thing on their LJ. 

I'm all for the Internet to be a place of sociability, but it's something I can have elsewhere, on boards, on my friends' LJ...


So what's the point? 

Why should I keep on updating? Does anyhting of this  still worthwhile? Has it ever been?

I can't help thinking that somehow, somewhere, I made a mistake or somewhat lost my way...

Comments

[frenchani.livejournal.com]

I entirely agree with what rahirah said to you. Lj is beyond anything else a place where you talk freely of what takes your fancy. People will read or not , will comment or not , but in the end that's not really the point.

Yes it's what LJ is for many people, but posting my thoughts wasn't what *I* aimed at, unless my thoughts would provoke other thoughts and discusisons. Actually I was more interesting in what others thought than in what I had to say, that was the point for me.

I guess LJ has never been for me. Of course this entry is a mere paradox because posting my thoughts was exactly what I've done here today...Told you I lost my way!

Je ne suis pas d'excellente humeur, syndrome pre-menstruel aidant, et comme j'ai une fâcheuse tendance au "tout ou rien" je me suis dit "à quoi bon continuer?". Ceci dit LJ m'a toujours frustrée, je préfère de loin les forums. J'ai cru, à tord, pouvoir faire de ce journal un forum.

[jamalov29.livejournal.com]

Je pense qu'il n'est pas regrettable d'avoir de hautes attentes. Je comprend parfaitement quand tu dis que Lj n'était pas pour toi un lieu de 'confession' ou d'écriture mais un lieu d'échanges. J'attend aussi cela de mon journal. Je ne suis pas dans la nécessité de raconter ma vie , je ne l'ai jamais fait avant.
D'un autre côté , les petites scenes de la vie sont un moyen pour se faire connaitre des autres , et créer un lien. Donc c'est vrai que j'ai plaisir à , parfois , parler de moi. :-) Mais comme j'ai plaisir à écouter ce que deviennent les autres.

Par contre j'aime partager mon opinion sur tout ce qui touche la communauté et si je n'avais jamais d'échos de ce que je dis , je me sentirais un peu inutile.

Comme tu le soulignes , si on parle de ses pensées c'est pour entendre celles les autres.

Mais il y a tant de voix tout autour. Je pense honnêtment que les gens lisent tout , mais ne prennent pas le temps de commenter assez.