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Sometimes I wonder
What's the point? What's the point in doing this LJ thing again?
I can't tell you how many times I have been about to quit.
Because I had a dream, you know. It was to create a place where we could gather and discuss screen stuff around a virtual cup of tea. I wanted to use the web in order to hold a salon as Julie de Lespinasse or La marquise du Deffand did in the 18th century. We would have discussed movies and television as their guests used to discuss books and ideas of the Enlightement at the time.
But overall I failed.
The only times people really gathered in here were when the topic was about kinks or about commenting/lurking/de-friending because they felt curious, teased or in need of explaining themselves...which means they came when it was not a salon but rather a playground. It was cool, but it wasn't what this LJ was supposed to be.
I've indulged myself with playground stuff, I've posted memes when they were connected to the Jossverse or to movies, or just because I knew some of "my friends" liked to learn things about their flist and it was a way to connect -which is good- but I could have done the very same thing on their LJ.
I'm all for the Internet to be a place of sociability, but it's something I can have elsewhere, on boards, on my friends' LJ...
So what's the point?
Why should I keep on updating? Does anyhting of this still worthwhile? Has it ever been?
I can't help thinking that somehow, somewhere, I made a mistake or somewhat lost my way...
I can't tell you how many times I have been about to quit.
Because I had a dream, you know. It was to create a place where we could gather and discuss screen stuff around a virtual cup of tea. I wanted to use the web in order to hold a salon as Julie de Lespinasse or La marquise du Deffand did in the 18th century. We would have discussed movies and television as their guests used to discuss books and ideas of the Enlightement at the time.
But overall I failed.
The only times people really gathered in here were when the topic was about kinks or about commenting/lurking/de-friending because they felt curious, teased or in need of explaining themselves...which means they came when it was not a salon but rather a playground. It was cool, but it wasn't what this LJ was supposed to be.
I've indulged myself with playground stuff, I've posted memes when they were connected to the Jossverse or to movies, or just because I knew some of "my friends" liked to learn things about their flist and it was a way to connect -which is good- but I could have done the very same thing on their LJ.
I'm all for the Internet to be a place of sociability, but it's something I can have elsewhere, on boards, on my friends' LJ...
So what's the point?
Why should I keep on updating? Does anyhting of this still worthwhile? Has it ever been?
I can't help thinking that somehow, somewhere, I made a mistake or somewhat lost my way...
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Oh yes it does, and you're absolutely right. I also think they feel safer when keeping discussions on (or bringing them onto) their own LJ. I suppose it has something to do with being in charge and above all, being "at home" in your safe little corner.
I've always thought that many boardies withdrew to LJ because they needed their own Internet place to be safe.
I don't think you should give up your LJ, but I do think you should consider creating a voy forum for film and tv discussion, or even an LJ community that people can join.
When I see the nearly-dead state of many voy forums, and I don't think it's such a good idea. Not sure a LJ community would work either. Maybe I should simply give up my idea of a virtual café devoted to screens.
or maybe....
I know I've avoiding your thought on lost post as I've not seen it yet, but I also know I've book marked it to come back and discuss when I've watched it!
Sometimes I've caught myself thinking whilst lurking on the BC&S that although this one program brought us all together, is there another one out there that can do that? I mean, do we have other things in common (all of us) or was it a fluke coming together that will never happen again?
I've not felt so strongly about something since Buffy, and I also think that a lot of my feelings for the program were created by being on the board. Lost has come close, but there isn't a community I can get involved in like the BC&S for that.
It reminds me of a really good holiday, or party that was so amazing you tried to go to the same place, or have the same people to the party, and 9 out of 10 times you can't. Maybe I'm waffelling.
Re: or maybe....
Maybe my mistake was to think I could set up tv/movies discussions within that fandom...
My readership comes from the Buffy fandom but my LJ wasn't fandom-oriented unlike so many others, and I dind't use it as a diary either...at the same time I kept mentioning the Jossverse.
It's like I was on LJ, stuck in the fandom but without playing the fanfom's rules and the LJ's rules.
How could I have succeeded?
you got me babe!
That show passion and you would never have known if you disn't give it a go.
I always find the best things are the ones you expect nothing from....
xx