Sometimes I wonder

[chani]

What's the point? What's the point in doing this LJ thing again? 

I can't tell you how many times I have been about to quit. 

Because I had a dream, you know. It was to create a place where we could gather and discuss screen stuff around a virtual cup of tea.  I wanted to use the web in order to hold a salon as Julie de Lespinasse or La marquise du Deffand did in the 18th century. We would have discussed movies and television as their guests used to discuss books and ideas of the Enlightement at the time.

But overall I failed. 

The only times people really gathered in here were when the topic was about kinks or about commenting/lurking/de-friending because they felt curious, teased or in need of explaining themselves...which means they came when it was not a salon but rather a playground. It was cool, but it wasn't what this LJ was supposed to be.

 I've indulged myself with playground stuff, I've posted memes when they were connected to the Jossverse or to movies, or just because I knew some of "my friends" liked to learn things about their flist and it was a way to connect -which is good- but I could have done the very same thing on their LJ. 

I'm all for the Internet to be a place of sociability, but it's something I can have elsewhere, on boards, on my friends' LJ...


So what's the point? 

Why should I keep on updating? Does anyhting of this  still worthwhile? Has it ever been?

I can't help thinking that somehow, somewhere, I made a mistake or somewhat lost my way...

Comments

[rahirah]

When I post something, it's because I want to talk about something. Sometimes it's frivolous, sometimes it's serious. Most times, it's nothing that someone else hasn't already said somewhere else. But nonetheless, I want to talk about it. It's always wonderful when someone else wants to talk about it with me, but if they don't, they don't.

It's LJ as a whole that's the party, not any one individual journal--each journal is one person at that party, joining a conversation in progress here, starting a new conversation there. And conversations bloom and grow and die away and start up again somewhere else, or flare into arguments, or devolve into flirting. No one of us is so brilliant and commanding that the whole party will focus on us at all times--if we're lucky, we get a few moments where all other conversation dies away because everyone is listening to us, but they're only moments, and they pass. And the conversation moves elsewhere, to other topics. And it's not that we've done anything wrong, but that there's just so many other things out there to see and hear and talk about.

If you want to talk, talk. And don't worry about who's listening.

[frenchani.livejournal.com]

I get that and that's why I said I probably made a mistake and lost my way, because the way LJ works doesn't fit what I had in mind when I started up this journal.

It's a board about movies and tv I wanted to set up.